Double A's.

Time: 12:41 a.m.
Where: Outside the house.
Now Playing: "Little Bit" by Lykke Li.



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So, it's Valentine's Day today and yeah this week is much of my exciting week for me and I don't know if this week will be as exciting as the weeks coming, especially the birthday week for the common types. So, this recent week I am describing is the rise of Philippine football as I watch the Azkals in action. Grabe, all Filipinos have that football fever and as an avid fan of the sport which I witnessed games from my favorite club, Manchester United, the 2010 World Cup and more, I am proud that we, the football crazies of the Philippines, will not hide from basketball crazies which are the dominator in the sports fan nation.



We always see jerseys of Kobe Bryant, LeBron James and the never-ending jerseys from SK competitions. I love basketball, actually, it's one of my first sports to love but suddenly, I found football and the fans are nuts for goals and I found it entertaining. I see that basketball fans don't like football because it's 90 minutes of waiting for goals compared to basketball, they score easily and fast-paced. Pinoys like pacing games, like boxing and basketball and when they watched the Azkals, in sari-sari stores, in tricycle stations or terminals, where a normal basketball fan is found here, probably, they see the beauty of football and I see the sport growing and yeah, probably some group of children playing the sport where the mini basketball courts used to be. I am proud that I love football and I am all football. That's why I am wearing my jersey every Sunday to go to the Church and eventually to the mall and people chatting about my jersey like they say, "Hey, that's the latest sponsor of Manchester United, AON." Not out loud but murmuring and I was like, yeah, I saw some football fans around and I am proud about it. Even Koreans noticed it for they are hardcore football fans themselves. Come on, Park Ji-Sung is one of the fullbacks of MANU and is a Korean himself.



I see Neil Etheridge as one of the force in Pinoy football for he is with Fulham, one of the elite clubs in the English Premier League now. For basketball fans, it's like the most watched football league, like your NBA. I see football a growing sport and thanks to the Azkals win over Viet Nam in the AFF Suzuki Cup last December, the fan bases are continue to grow until we make it to the World Cup (hopefully).

First "A" is the word "Azkals" and the second "A" this week is "Arcade Fire". I am a huge fan of Arcade Fire. Why? Because their music is totally unique. I easily understand the meaning each of the tree albums they have as of now (Funeral, Neon Bible, and The Suburbs) although the songs are way deep and compared to mainstream music of today, it's easy to understand because the message is direct and I don't like that. I mean, they sing "love me", "you're the one", "I'll not choose, only you", I mean that's the common words I hear in most R n'B songs.



For "Funeral", the album means of a tragedy in the building between the neighborhood. As for "Neon Bible", it expresses the anger to adults. They face strict people and want liberation and as for their latest album "The Suburbs", I feel that this album is their best because of its unique concept, they feature the suburban teenagers of America today, involving them is drugs, early teenage pregnancy, and fraternity wars. Anyway, "The Suburbs" received hichly-acclaimed reviews from different music organization including Pitchfork Media and Billboard which they put the album as the Top 2 Album of the Year 2010. Because of these achievements, "The Suburbs" is one of the nominees for "Album of the Year" and Arcade Fire will face the mainstream stars Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Eminem, and Lady Antebellum. They are huge underdogs, I meant of Arcade Fire but I am confident that they will bag the gold.

Go Azkals and Arcade Fire.

Time: 1:15 a.m.
Where: Still in the terrace.
Now Playing: "The Suburbs" by Arcade Fire.

Ultimate Crushes.

Time: 11:56 p.m.
Where: In our bedroom.
Now Playing: "Losing My Religion" by R.E.M.



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Well, I don't why pictures of good looking women always catching my attention. It's like when you see them, Cupid is near you and practice target-shooting using his bow and arrows. So, it's "Love Month" all-over again and as usual, I am single, probably because I am shy of girls or I don't know, just not used to hang with them, lack of interest similarities, that's why I think. That's why I am stuck at being single and that's why I have thirst of "girls" all of a sudden. I mean, you know, meeting one, especially if she's gorgeous. Well, I have cited some extraordinary women lately and yeah, you know the feeling of you wanna be one of "their" friends and you wish that you were born to know them or reincarnate into the person that used to be one of their best friends to actually know their interest and probably end up as her boyfriend "for life"? I am always imagining it. For real. Having my fantasies with them. Oh darn.

Anyway, I have a list of "these" people. Probably my Top 5 women that I want to be friends with probably not only by their good looks, but also we had some similarities, in music for instance or probably, I have this "love at first sight" thing.

5. Kim Yu-Na



-Well, she's cute and it all started when I was watching the Vancouver Winter Olympics 2010 and yeah, I heard much of her in 2009 but never saw her until that day where she skated the whole routine with majesty and beauty. It's like "whoa", this girl has something. Well, I am not condemning Koreans probably because I hate their Korean Pop music, but I think the women are mostly good-looking.

4. Taylor Swift



-Hmmm... I maybe not be a fan of country music but I do like her good looks and we are both bloggers. I admire her blogging style and I am considering her a popular person due to her music like the most of us do. She likes to reach to her fans by expressing herself through her songs (that are quite controversial due to her previous relationships that makes me jealous all the time) and also to her blogs, some video blogs are quite addictive to watch probably because she has videos that she mostly don't do in public like running, playing basketball and more. That's why I am one of her followers, not on her music (Well, I am trying to be), but followers of her blogs. Plus, she covered one of my favorite Coldplay's songs, "Viva La Vida" probably because she is a huge Coldplay fan and yeah, an influence, one of her influences.

3. Anne Curtis/Rhian Ramos/Gretchen Fullido







-A triple tie. Can't decide whose greater or vice-versa so I decided to rank them into a single position that will make them equal to each other and yes, different personalities. First, to Anne, probably I love her fashion statement daily and yeah, every clothes that she wear always used to trend everybody and good for her. We used to have the same taste in music. I mean, she likes independent music especially, electropop, synthpop, I'll just sum up that she likes Alternative music like I do. There. She's so ecstaticly beautiful. A single tweet of her will make me happy but so far, none. Probably, she has many followers on Twitter, the most followed Filipino user I think. Rhian, hmmm... she does look alike Taylor if she puts a blonde wig and some blue contact lenses. There. She's also cute and yeah, attractive. Gretchen, hmmm.... she's beautiful but not that as I call "sexy" but "busty" and we both like sports. It's rare to see a woman who is actually into sports. Basketball, Football, everything. She even tweeted me that she loves Cristiano Ronaldo, it's like what? Ronaldo's abs? Hahaha.

2. Victoria Justice



-She's my recent "love at first sight" person, whatever. She's at my same age group, cute, and yeah, she's so hot and good at singing. I just wish that she, you know, tweeted me. How ironic, if I want to meet that girl, I just wish to request a tweet, because it's impossible. She's half-Latina and one of my types probably she's half-Latina and everything. She's stunning and likes Coldplay. Why do I kept emphasizing on Coldplay anyway? It's not music talk here. LOL.

1. Sam Pinto



-Long time follower of her since her Pinoy Big Brother days. Damn, long story about her. I like reality shows because this is my "search engine" for gorgeous women, like PBB for instance and I found Cathy Remperas and her as my bets because they were stunning. After that, I started to follow her. Stalk her and even my sister and my friends know that I am so addicted to this lady. I don't know if Sam have some "agimat" or "gayuma" on every men that's why tons of opportunities she had. Commercials, movies, acting programs, guest appearances and stuff. She was like rise on the top, out of nowhere. I am always super happy when we tweet each other last year and the last tweet I received from her as of now was on my birthday and I was so darn happy about it. She even made a fansign for me. Oh darn, how I loved it. I just wish that we meet each other and probably become friends. I envy some her friends that i wish I could be one of them, as regular friends.

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Time: 12:30 a.m.
Where: Still in here, our bedroom.
Now Playing: "Phantom Limb" by The Shins.

I wanna be a Mancurian.

Time: 9:19 p.m.
Where: In my room.
Now Playing: "You Overdid It Doll" by The Courteeners.

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What a kick to start my year and it's been awhile since I blogged months ago. Well, I guess I just skipped what happened on my Christmas and how I end the year with a bang, probably because... ahh, long story but I sense that I will have a good year. Being optimistic but, you'll never tell what will happen to your future. On the topic then. Last Sunday, January 9th, I saw a kid wearing a Manchester United home jersey while on a Sunday Mass was on-going. I was quite distracted and looking on that kid. I am not an Atheist, quite religious but that was the most distracting mass I've ever attended on.


My mother heard me murmuring about that shirt and she said that I am the kind of guy who doesn't wish to them things, so, guess what? They helped me find that shirt all over the mall after the mass and jackpot. I have this on and it is perfect because on that day was a Manchester United home game in The Theatre of Dreams, Old Trafford and yeah, Liverpool was our opponent.


Can't help myself to scream and chant, that's how a football game should work if you're a fan and we won. easy work for Ryan Giggs and it was my dream to wear a Manchester United jersey for I am a four years fan of United and I am continue to follow them. From the Beckham days to the Rooney and Berbatov era. I wanna be a Mancurian so bad.

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Time: 9:25 p.m.
Where: Still in my room.
Now Playing: "Undercover Martyn" by Two Door Cinema Club.

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The equation 10 + 28 +2010 = 18 is computable.

Time: 12:47 p.m.
Where: In my bedroom.
Now Playing: "It's Working" by MGMT.



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Mathematically, no but, when it comes in time and space, it is sort of computable. Making this a figure of speech for nothing. Pretty self-explanatory on that said made-up formula, making myself horrendous. Anyway, today is my 18th birthday and I must admit, I am NOT that mature when it comes to responsibilities inside and outside our household but I am getting there to be a responsible guy at all task and I am trying to be a social companion and socially healthy as well. You see, I am a type of person who is an anti-socialite, it's not that I am "the loner", it's such that, I don't feel to talk to people because we lack of similarities that's all and I want to change that, I wanted my friends to see that I am trying to know them and not the loser kid of yesterday (during high school days where I used to get yanked and bullied by other people bigger than me and screwed me up). I was totally a high-tempered person at that time because they used to tease me things that they see in me physically, which is a horrendous things to do. I wanted to change that as well, the old hot-headed Ralph, will be the patient and more confident Ralph of tomorrow, Hopefully.

Another wish for my birthday is for my family. I hope that my mother will find a way to surpass our problem. You see, I am currently in hiatus right now but I am still learning, thank you, Internet and my mom let my sister to finish college so that she can get a job and then let me go back in shape. In addition, I have scoliosis, I used to suffer something and I can't breathe normally because my right lung can't gather more air in exchange and my left is doing all the work and some back aches, that's why I am in hiatus from hard wok learning. It's sad and painful to know it last year after three terms in Mapua, one of my dream schools to enter. I just wish that my mother will be okay at all times because she's always tired at work and I understand her, a lot. Everyday, I am always thinking of things like (Did my mother already eat? Is she home already?) Questions of concern in her part. On my sister, that I hope she surpasses every single task, one at the time, grabe, kasi, sa bahay, yes, lagi ko siyang parang inaasar and she used to pummel me and parang hindi serious on her side everything she says in every experience in Letran, parang hindi interesado parang wala lang, (that's my alter ego, being a crazy dude), pero inside, I am concerned too as well kasi lagi siyang puyat, hindi na nakakauwi at laging maginagawa, halos walang pahinga. That's why I helped some of her work (I am such a good brother). And sa dad ko, Dad please, sana maibalik mo ang dati Papa na nakilala ko. Too complicated to tell and I don't want to broaden up some details. That's my wish for my beloved family. To my other one's na sana lagi silang safe.

Did some wishes for myself, my friends and my loved ones. Now to my extraordinary wishes (Sana matupad balang araw before I die, I am still compiling this every year I celebrate my day).

- Sana I obtain a Manchester United Home Kit.
- I wish I have a PS3 or XBOX 360 right now falling from the sky.
- Hopefully to meet every single "ultimate crushes" I had (Celebrity ones, not from my high school days, I will not enumerate them all, ang dami but I would like to mention this girl).
-And lastly, an operation to be cured on my Adolescent Idiopathic Scoliosis.

I guess that is all for now, my day is like any other day this year, like last year's, where I used to be a busy boy in all task in Mapua during that day with my Diagnostic test, I still remember that day. Well, I just wish again, to have more birthdays to come to experience life even more. Now, if you excuse me, I have some Oasis songs to enjoy. Good day to all and thanks for the greetings, Appreciated it.

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Time: 1:49 p.m.
Where: Still in my bedroom.
Now Playing: "Dance in the Dark" by Lady Gaga. (seriously, I like this song even though it's from Gaga and the only song I like from her, It's like Pet Shop Boys sound and Madonna way of singing in one).

My Hunger for Learning.

Time: 1:56 a.m.
Where: In my bedroom.
Now Playing: "Radioactive" by Kings of Leon.



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Well, it's been 10 months now of useless vacation for me since I chose to rest my body from hardwork learning in Mapua for 6 months straight and it was a sign that I was making myself late for the others and it was hard to lose grip on something I need. It's like a race to the finish where I need to cross the white line and it will be mission accomplished but my current stature, physically, mentally and probably socially are not enough to beat those other guys and got the upper hand advantage wise.

I felt like a jerk because I have this Scoliosis and dealing it for years and years and if you ask me, if you have this, it's hard to deal life. Seriously. You can't breathe properly at one time and have low condition of you're running or if your are lifting something that heavy. That's where I suffered during my first months as a college student back then.



Again, I felt like a jerk why I pushed my limitations and go to the school that can cause me too much pressure, health-wise and mental wise. A sheer embarrassment on my side to be here loafing around while I am seeing some of my friends' statuses on Facebook about their goals, heartbreaks in learning and success it it (e.g., Ang galing ko, naiapasa ko ang MATH23 ngayon pero sure fail ako sa PHY15 nito bukas kasi hindi ako nagreview). Like that. I am so envious to them and the feeling of achievement is BIG in sight.

In 10 months, I am trying to still learn. Reading some of my books on Plane and Spherical Trigonometry, Solid Mensuration and more. Also, I am learning online, some random quizzes in random college courses. Trying to exercise my brain and not to be a loser to myself because I was inspired on that blog I saw last week about a graduating student this year, and he's not just a graduating one, a Suma Cum Laude one. I read his graduating speech and said that he was one of the victims of procrastination of his high school and early college days where he used to fail. He wasn't at that point, a serious student and then he pursued harder that he deserve and now, he's at the top. A proof that education is for everyone and failing is just a natural instinct to every student. We can rise up again from the grave.

there will come a day for next year, after my sister graduated, then, it's my turn to come back. I will be back in Manila but I am NOT sure if in Intramuros Walls again or in other district. We'll see. The return is near upon me.

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Time: 2:09 a.m.
Where: Still in my bedroom.
Now Playing: "Sweet Disposition" by The Temper Trap.

Justin Bieber and K-Pop artists need "Somebody to Love" them, I don't.

Time: 6:46 p.m.
Where: In our living room.
Now Playing: "Rhinestone Eyes" by Gorillaz.

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You know, here's my introduction...

F*ck Justin Bieber, F*ck Super Junior, F*ck SHINee, F*ck 2NE1, F*ck 4Minute, F*ck FT Island, F*ck One Way and F*ck them all Korean Pop artists plus upcoming charisma artists. Damn, these artists are called "charisma artists" where they used their charms and looks to hypnotize millions and millions of people in the Philippines that's why they dominate the local charts as of now. Those "them" are the ones who have fanbases of that said artists where most of "them" are brash talkers and narcissists to them people who hates their beloved artists, especially Justin Bieber, f*ck that guy.

I just think that Justin Bieber just made a clear shot of his popular "Bieber Blast" to the millions of people who are hypnotize as of the moment on his charisma music. Come on, he didn't compose his songs, he can't play any single instrument instead of whacking the drums which in result, the drums was ruined in the last VMA's because of fail musicality, and his stupid hair. Damn. I am damn sure that the National Academy of Recording Arts and Sciences of the United States will not notice Bieber's voice and he will be not nominated for any Grammy award next year nor all of the K-Pop artists, they all don't deserve it. It's impossible for them. Sorry for this harsh words if you're really into Bieber Fever or to Korean Wave but it's just I hate them, so I express them here.

Now, to those Korean Pop artists, I blame GMA for starting this Korean Wave thingy. If you remember 2003, the first Korean drama shown here in Philippine free TV, "Endless Love". In result, it hooked millions of Filipinos, and now, unanimous Filipinos now wanted to extract more from Koreans instead of drama. You know, they wanted to explore more to Koreans. So, they have interest on their music, which they really don't understand, even I am. Flock of female birds screaming (I meant of Filipina girls), in every Super Junior or U-Kiss or any other Korean boy band concert. Damn, I just hate it. They, the Filipina teenagers, love them because they're cute and handsome... that's why the Original Pinoy Music industry is down and unappreciative by the Pinoys themselves and I must admit, that industry is changed, Western-type musicality wanna be is the OPM industry but somehow I find Tanya Markova the coolest band I listened too in the fact that I liked "synthpop" music. Maybe that's why unanimous people here goes "crab mentality" and being part of those fags like Bieber and those K-Pop artists.

I would rather listen to William Hung than Justin Bieber. Just f*ck them all. Oh, and also, If I was asked this question, "Bieber or Die?" I would rather DIE than BIEBER.

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Time: 7:09 p.m.
Where: Still in our living room.
Now Playing: "Justin Bieber gets hit by a water bottle" by some YouTuber.

Not So Infinitesimal Experiences.

Time: 5:45 p.m.
Now Playing: "Losing Touch" by The Killers.
Where: In the living room.

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I just wanted to take this opportunity to do some unique this on a unique day on a unique style of blogging. So, I am using this MacBook for so long only for this day because I never touched one and now, I am holding and amazed because of my infinitesimal experience. So, I will make two blogs in one entry alone.

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First Blog: "Four Years more Mom, you'll be a Golden Mom".

My mom is getting older and yet as she grow older, the harder her challenges will be. She is just four years away to be a "Golden Mom". She's is my supermom alright. She just celebrated her birthday last September 6 and yet I didn't blog it earlier enough but that said day was a normal day for her that she needed to work on a Monday but we greeted her through text which is I think enough for her to brighten her day but I don't think it's enough.

I know that my mother doesn't want that to happen. She's that kind of mother that finds a way just to bond with her family and making it special. So, on September 11, we had a steak-out montage or for short, a dinner out. She is the celebrant but she bought the food for us which is embarrassing and rare but you know my mother, she just truly loves us and we had a lot of love debt for her. We need to somehow equal it up.

From all those sufferings, she continues to surpass it all no matter how hard it is, whether it is financial problem, or social problem, or physical problem whatsoever, she is just the supermom I know.

I love you, Mama.

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Second Blog: September 26, a year before.

September 26 of last year, it was the most horrendous experience I received and hopefully, I won't have that same experience ever again. It was a rough experience.

I am really lucky that I am just having a case of massive traffic in the suburbs of Manila. 14 hours, that's no big deal now to me when I saw that there are thousands of people that have the worst situations than I did last Saturday, September 26, 2009. Others are in the roofs of their houses, even they didn't own the house. Others are finding a way to get out of the floods. Others are having the heroic aura to save many lives before their own selves. Wow, imagine what kind of environment, of atmosphere it will be.

After that 6 deadly hours of heavy rainfall and aggressive floods, just look of those people who were victimized by Ketsana, by immobilizing to Ketsana's foolish love, I must say, maybe not.

I feel that I want to help them and I think all of those 92 million Filipinos are required to help those for a speedy recovery. So, from Ketsana with Love? I must say, not.


Well, yeah. Damn, I need to pee in the center of Coastal Road on that day. No food, no water at all. God, I was almost dehydrated on that day. The jeepneys were so rare on that day, gladly I found one and the gate in my house was locked so, I need to climb that 8-foot gate up. Thank God I was okay.

Some parts taken from "From Ketsana with Love, Maybe Not".

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Time: 6:30 p.m.
Where: Still in our living room.
Now Playing: "For the First Time" by The Script.