Having an All-Time Low

Time: 1:41 p.m.
Where: In a computer shop.
Now Playing: "It's Time" by Imagine Dragons.

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It's really something that I never experienced before in my life as a student, or even my entire life. It's something I never suffered before and really, I was surprised with myself that how did I come up with these? It's like the feeling of my mind is not connected into my heart or my body is not doing what my mind wants it to do.

Well, I never had this huge amount of stress before but who am I to blame but myself. I just simply lost my discipline and composure. I know that failure is a mark of coming back but let's face it, it's degrading my morale at the moment that I don't know if I ever can come back again as the same person I was in the elementary and high school days where I was active as hell on studies but since I stopped for two years to sacrifice myself in order for my sister to graduate, I think I lost the momentum of the culture I had few years back. Well, as I write this blog, I am at my "all-time low" now. Degraded, humiliated and disgraced, yet I am still optimistic that I CAN DO THIS. It's just isolated that I didn't gave my best in the prelim, but when I saw that coming, I just realized that I need to wake up and be back on the game. I am so slow, but I can catch up or surpass my expectations. I just hope that I can do it all the way. I will not give up and thanks to my friends who believe in me that I can do it. Please, I cannot afford to be careless again. No more mistakes!

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Time: 1:51 p.m.
Where: Still here.
Now Playing: The same song.