Time: 9:49 p.m.
Where: In the dark room.
Now Playing: "Pretty Loser" by Sheila & the Insects.
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This is the day I felt left out from the rest and while everyone is making status on their Facebook or tweeting about them passing, I am so envious to them that I never had the same feeling they have right now. The feeling of success. I never felt that this semester. I was always depressed in every result but then, I had the feeling of coming back but that never happened. All I do was to keep cheering myself but I am NOT really have the sense of initiative to do it which was frustrating.
I am not expecting to pass the subjects that I may possibly in danger to fail but with this, I just hope I can learn with this and move on and focus on graduating. One of my profs somehow inspired me because he told us he was "FOREVER IRREGULAR" and eventually graduated and became a licensed Engineer. I wanted for that to happen.
I just wanted to be strong and not be affected with this but it's natural to be like 'suicidal' when you felt it the first time but not trying to be like one. I remembered what my prof said that "Grades are just numbers, just enjoy learning and grades will follow." From now on, I'll keep that in mind. :(
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Time: 10:22 p.m.
Where: Still here.
Now Playing: Same song.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Here's to learn a valuable lesson.
Time: 4:53 p.m.
Where: In our bedroom.
Now Playing: "Here's Where the Story Ends" by The Sundays.
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Well, the previous semester was a disaster for me because I always felt that I am 'always' left behind and the fact that stress was always there. That's why there are times that my body can't respond to the thing I need to do. My brain says 'do it', but my body can't. That's always the case.
But with my performance this previous semester still pending, I just hope for the best and pass all of my subjects and remain as a block student. With this, I will dodge a huge bullet again and hopefully, collect myself and learn from this and become serious next semester. I got careless twice, but hopefully, not three times the charm.
Yes, the semester maybe over but I am not enjoying at the moment!
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Time: 5:01 p.m.
Where: Still here.
Now Playing: "Trying to be Cool" by Phoenix.
Where: In our bedroom.
Now Playing: "Here's Where the Story Ends" by The Sundays.
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Well, the previous semester was a disaster for me because I always felt that I am 'always' left behind and the fact that stress was always there. That's why there are times that my body can't respond to the thing I need to do. My brain says 'do it', but my body can't. That's always the case.
But with my performance this previous semester still pending, I just hope for the best and pass all of my subjects and remain as a block student. With this, I will dodge a huge bullet again and hopefully, collect myself and learn from this and become serious next semester. I got careless twice, but hopefully, not three times the charm.
Yes, the semester maybe over but I am not enjoying at the moment!
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Time: 5:01 p.m.
Where: Still here.
Now Playing: "Trying to be Cool" by Phoenix.
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